I'm Trying

(darrell scott/tia sillers)

She said i'm not pointing fingers
And he said yes you are
'cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
If i told you i'd been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcholoics word?
I can't change what's done is done
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i don't curse myself and all my sins
And i need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying
Though i haven't kicked the demons that haunt me
I'm trying
I'm trying

She sat down on the floor
And said i wish i was stronger
Right now i feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you
Believe what's held you has freed you
And i hate these doubts that keep on coming back
My parents think i'm crazy for staying here this long
But there's nothing more i want for us than to prove to them they're wrong
I don't want to be afraid, i don't want to think you're lying
And though i haven't found the faith yet, that i need
I'm trying
Oh, i'm trying

He asked, do you want me to leave?
'cause if you do, you know i will
But she said, much to his disbelief
No, i love you still

He said i don't know why i've been the fool
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i don't curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying
Said, i haven't been the man i want to be
But, i'm trying
Oh,i'm trying
I'm trying
Oh lord, i'm trying