Only God Knows Why

I've been sittin' here tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback, listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
I feel like number one, yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son and it helps to pass the time
I take to many pills...it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple dollar bills, still i feel the same
Everybody knows my name, say it way out loud
a lotta folks fuck with me, its hard to hang out in crowds
i guess that's the price you pay to be some big shot like I am
outstretched hands and one night stands, still i cant find love
and when your walls come tumblin' down, i will always be around
...yea anyone and now...
and when your walls come tumblin' down, I will always be around
people don't know about the things I say or do
they don't understand about the shit that I've been through
it's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone I've been gone for way to long
maybe i forgot all the things id miss
oh somehow i know there's more to life then this
i said it too many times and i still stand firm
you get what you put in, and people get what deserve
still i ain't seen mine no i ain't seen mine
I've been givin' just ain't been gettin' I've been walkin back that line
so I think ill keep on walkin with my head held high
ill keep movin' on and only god knows why
only god..
only god..
only god knows why
only god knows...why why why why only god knows why
take it to the devil, hey wont you take me to the river
hey hey hey hey hey....