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Dear Mathew I like you a lot
I realize you're in a relationship
with someone right now and I respect that
I would like you to know
that if you're ever single in the future
and you want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you
and finding out how old you were
when you wrote your first song

Dear Jonathan I liked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys
who would like to me
and think solely about themselves
and you were plenty self-destructive
for my taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better
the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's
your face comes up with a vengenance
like it was yesterday

Dear Terrance I love you muchly
you've been nothing but open hearted
and emotionally availabe and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away
I remember how beautiful it was
to fall asleep on your couch
and cry in front of you for the first time
you were the best platform
from which to jump beyond myself
what was wrong with me

Dear Marcus you rocked my world
you had a charismatic way about you
with the women and you got me seriously thinking
about spirituality and you wouldn't let me
get away with kicking my own ass
but I could never really feel relaxed
and looked out for around you though
and that stopped us from getting any further
than we did and it's kinda too bad
because we could've had much more fun

Dear Lou we learned so much
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest
and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back
and be curious about you
and about your career you whereabouts