Apology

I remember everything
I've learned about survival
I've walked with fools and kings
And i've even read the bible

There i came upon some lines
Givin' me direction
Gather not your gold on earth
Your kingdom is in heaven

But i chose to live instead
Inside the shell they gave me
'til in spite of everything
Good fortune came to find me

I tried my best to run away
But i could not avoid the feelin'
Soon i was reelin' on my feet
I made a grab at anything
The earth was gone and i was on
A vicious circle then

After i'd gone and let myself surrender
I didn't want to die at all
I thought i'd live forever

Then she gave me everything
A king could never borrow
But i twisted all her gifts
Her wisdom was my sorrow

So i left her cryin'
And roamed across the river
The angels offered me their hands
But i could not forget her

So i came to where she was
By river, road and reason
I slept beneath her window
In the moonlight summer season

But i could not go inside
I heard the sound of laughter
And the rustle of her hair upon his skin
I made a grab at anything
The earth was gone and i was on
A vicious circle then

After i'd gone to cry down my sorrow
I didn't want to live no more
Nor face the bright tomorrow

Then i remembered everything
I've learned about survival
Havin' walked with fools and kings
I've even read the bible

I remember all those lines
Givin' me direction
Gather not your gold on earth
It will not pass inspection

And still i think when i'm alone
Away from all night splendor
If gold could buy one night with her
I wish i had some to send her