In serch for I

It hurts to think
can't get the sums together
Would you draw my bitterness
Make the pictures fade

Could it be that I see
What's beneath when we fall
The truth in ever
I'm scared that I'll be

The sentence is light
But my eyes see a different world
And all I do is turn into flames

Will time open my fault
New solutions, I'm begging
Break the fuse that holds me back

The I is lost in me
But I'm ready to give you
The "m", it might even be the "e"
As I begin to search for I

Distract, push me in another direction
This wall that I stare into
It's getting old
Give me faith to reach for the new
Pull me apart and do me all over
I'll need a re-make
To make up for my mistakes

What if I stop to care?
What if let you fall?